oh baby baby

"i heard that you were trouble but i couldn't resist"
so i fucked you through the phone lines
with my eyes closedand touched myself the way you said you'd touch me
seems i think i can get anywhere with seduction these days
but it's just not proving itself very truly.
3 years ago possibly today
i looked into your baby brown eyes and saw
mommy's little heartbreak pulling me by my blond hair
and if you ever wondered, i spent all this time growing it back
because my heart skipped a beat when you told me you'd like me to wear it that way.
if you want, love
you can forget the gold pushcar i shoved you down the hill in
the pool and your backflips and the pictures i took
the fights over your stupid friends(you know i'd never pick them over you anyway)
and how uncomfortable i was, sitting on your baby bed
waiting for you to tell me you loved me or to leave
because either i'm just flat out confused
or maybe you do like a girl that doesn't care back
one that'll push you around the way that you push me
because crazy like your fucking post pubescent mood swings
just isn't seeming to move you much, baby
nor does overthinking your pronunciation of the word "like"
when you're trying to get a rise out of me.
see, my baby left on a south bound train
but maybe it's not him i want back again
maybe i want whoever you are
maybe i don't even want to be your friend
if i could fuck you on the couch and suck off all your hurt
like an exorcism, i would
if i could keep you on the phone just to hear your voice
regardless of how angry it sounds, i would.
i dream of fast rides down the left lane with you
in a car carrying more sex appeal than a shitty old mustang
and i mean this with utmost sincerity.
yesterday i considered getting off on the thought of you crying
just to feel another human, to check to see if you're alive
my motives failed me again, but i don't have another week to wait alone
to see if you'll forgive me for the problems you created.
i lost myself in time it seems but you lost yourself in hell
let's meet in the middle and never look back again.
you'd like to think you're different, but really you're just the same.
i'm sorry for my absence (i'll make it up i promise), but can i yet have you back?